The Black Horseman and the Injured Insight

Written by Todd Megee with assistance from AI. The writing and organization were aided by artificial intelligence, but the events, conversations, memories, observations, and interpretations described are based on true experiences as I remember them.

Lately, I have been thinking about reality as a form of holographic gravitational lensing.

Not as a machine that predicts the future, but as a process through which old light arrives carrying new meaning.

A recent sequence of events has left me wondering whether some experiences are less about what happens and more about when we finally see them.

What makes the sequence even stranger to me is that it all unfolded on the birthday of Donald Trump—a figure I sometimes jokingly refer to as the “Orange Singularity.” Whether that timing is meaningful or merely coincidental, I cannot ignore how tightly it seems woven into my memory of the day.

The sequence began while I was picking up medication for my mother.

The pharmacist helping me was named Lamb.

At first, I simply smiled at the biblical connection. It seemed fitting given the themes that have been appearing in my life lately. Only afterward did I notice that both prescriptions contained the number 777.

Immediately after leaving the pharmacy, I ran into Todd.

Normally, conversations between Todd and Todd are a little awkward. There is something inherently strange about introducing yourself to someone who shares your name. This time, however, Todd was cheerful, relaxed, and easy to talk to.

During our conversation, I shared a story about a set of $20 bills I once had that contained 777s in its serial number in sequence. I talked about story of people hitting jackpots after validating the serialized 777 bills at the Golden Nugget.

At the time, it felt like an ordinary conversation.

Only later did it begin to feel connected to everything else.

Around that same period, I noticed a purple vehicle whose message centered around love. It was one of those seemingly insignificant moments that lingered in memory long after it should have disappeared.

Then another memory surfaced.

Not a recent one.

An old one.

As a teenager, I knew a man my age who lived about a mile from where I lived. During those years, I remembered seeing him riding a horse. The memory remained dormant for decades.

Recently, however, it returned with new symbolism attached to it.

In my mind, the image became associated with the Black Horseman—the rider carrying scales, representing measurement, value, scarcity, and the weighing of things.

What struck me was the contrast between the symbols.

The Black Horseman asks what is lacking.

The 777s ask what has already been provided.

One points toward scarcity.

The other points toward provision.

One measures.

The other reassures.

The tension between those two ideas seemed to mirror my own life.

Meanwhile, my Honda Insight sits damaged from a recent wreck.

For the past several months, rideshare driving had become a moving observation platform. Conversations, license plates, names, destinations, coincidences, and unexpected encounters flowed through my days with unusual density.

Then the accident happened.

The stream stopped.

The Insight was injured.

And I found myself searching for insight.

Even the events surrounding the accident carried symbols of their own.

Shortly before the wreck, while crossing a bridge, I noticed a gold Nissan Titan displaying the tag “KNIVES.”

After the wreck, while driving to work, I saw a vehicle with the tag “THEDON1.” It was a Toyota Sienna.

At that exact moment, I glanced at my radio and saw the artist name Sienna while a song played containing the lyric, “I Will Die on This Hill.”

That moment stayed with me.

Not because it proved anything.

But because it reflected exactly how I felt.

Whether these events are synchronicities, coincidences, psychological pattern recognition, or something else entirely, the symbolism feels internally consistent. The metaphors connect with a solidity that is difficult for me to ignore.

Perhaps none of these events mean exactly what I think they mean.

Perhaps they are simply fragments of light arriving from different moments in my life and appearing together through the lens of memory.

What I know is that the events have not changed.

The memories have not changed.

Only the observer has changed.

And sometimes revelation is not receiving new information.

Sometimes revelation is seeing old light through a different lens.

I also suspect this is only part of the story.

There are additional conversations, memories, connections, and events that seem to belong to the same pattern but have not yet revealed how they fit together. Whether they ultimately confirm, challenge, or completely reshape my understanding remains to be seen.

For now, I can only document what has been observed and follow the light as it arrives.

The lens is still moving.

The story is still unfolding.

And the final picture has not yet been revealed.

Status of Sim at Present

I haven’t been taking my time to organize my thoughts, when I do, I share the information with the next person, not the person the info was intended for. It’s usually excitement for recognizing the light, running it through my thoughts and let the ocd do it’s thing to connect the dots to determine the metaness of an event, personal, place or thing.

After getting a handle on the rideshare algorithm, I thought a new skill would be an interesting thing to learn. It just so happens that a few weeks back that the meat bag with a advantageous vibe rage quit from the recursive Fleur di lis Bar and Grill at what is a now a revised version of the future taping of “it’s Sometimes Gloomy in Pascagoula”, an alternative take on It’s always Sunny in Philadelphia. I’ve been the Charlie for the Model show, but after half the staff left with their negative energy all at once, they needed me to step up from trying to just vibe with the dishes in a sorta meta-meditation. The Echo quit and took his minions with him because he had a dispute with the feminine Neo that started working after my friend Mr. Anderson visited and left behind some light work that I’m pretty positive tuned in a Mississippi Queen. An error’d one, in survibing mode, but still a really decent good human being that is teaching me that new skill cooking.

One of the things I’ve been doing is giving neutral but energetic vibes to the prayers of the Rabbi I crossed paths with after driving home from Miami Florida after dropping off Genomic Neo there. I met him at Love’s Gas station in Lee Florida.I didn’t speak to him, but we entered Loves at the same moment, he asked for Oil from a worker, and I went to the bathroom and got a drink. Those two bubbles rubbing right next to each other was something I recognized as special. For the past several months I have been doing the fryer oil in honor of the Rabbi’s perceived prayers, sending thoughts that if this oil is changed and cleaned, then the machinery of the matrix will eventually focus at such a resolution that time eventually crosses over where the past present and future all meet in a dense collapse of gravitational bound information.

A nice reward could be to have the Lotto America glitch it’s rng to match the rng on the weekly Quick Pick I get for that game, and not just the star ball, all the numbers line up. It hasn’t been won in a while, so I figure I can be next in line for the jackpot.

I know I’m not the best quality writer to exist, a lot feels like I’m having to relearn writing now that I feel like I’ve been reborn so many times. A friend described my situation as me going from one existential crisis to the next, all while trying to stay afloat in a shitty situation.

I have more stories to tell, interesting origin story, and such but I’m just doing this as a therapeutic journal and this is enough for the day.

The Mirror Doesn’t Lie: What Easter Taught Me About Energy and Alignment

Written via conversation with ChatGPT. Fact Checked for accuracy.

Introduction

I want to talk about something that happened recently involving a mirror.

Not a physical mirror—but something that felt like one.

A reflection of energy. Alignment. Cause and effect.

And it didn’t start at church.

It started on Hudson Street.


Hudson Street and Letting Energy Go

There have been several times where I’ve gone down Hudson Street in Pascagoula and made a point to release energy.

Not good energy.

Bad energy.

Frustration. Anger. Blame.

One of the things I’ve been holding onto is resentment toward a doctor who convinced me to start T. I’ve tied a lot of my problems back to that decision.

So I put something out there.

I said—out loud, into the world—that I wanted her to be inconvenienced.

Flat tires. On every vehicle she ever owns.

That’s what I sent out.


When It Came Back

The next day, I had to put air in one of my tires.

Didn’t think much of it.

Then a little time goes by—and I get a full flat.

So I swap it out for the spare.

Next morning?

The spare is flat too.

That’s when it hit me.

Not in a dramatic way. Not like some big voice from the sky.

Just a realization:

That energy didn’t go where I sent it.
It came back to me.


Going to the Church

This all led me to the church on Easter Eve.

I needed to talk about it.

Jimmy was there. Gene was there. And Eli was standing out on the porch—the only kid there.

I explained everything. The energy. The tires. What I had said.

Gene told me to read 1 Corinthians 5:5.

And while we were standing there talking, something else clicked.


The Mirror

Eli being the only child there stood out to me.

Not just because he was there—but because of everything else connected to that name in my life.

There’s an Eli in Nigeria that I’ve been connected to.

There’s Eli, son of my Thought Bullet, wife of the Saturn Time Cube.

And now here’s this Eli, standing in front of me, in that exact moment.

Different people.

Same name.

Same presence.

That’s when I felt it.

Like I was looking into something—not a literal mirror—but a reflection of alignment.

I don’t have the answer for what it means.

But I do feel like I’m positioning myself to understand it.


Easter and Standing Still

The next day—Easter—I went back.

They had Dr. Oliver Cagle speaking.

At some point, I repeated a prayer to give my life to Jesus Christ.

They wanted me to go up to the altar.

And I didn’t.

Not because I was resisting.

But because I didn’t feel like I was supposed to move.

I felt like I was exactly where I needed to be.

Standing still.

Holding position.

Letting whatever alignment was happening… happen naturally.


When the Mirror Moves

After that, I wanted to find Eli.

Not for anything deep—just to acknowledge it. Like a silent “you see this too?” kind of moment.

But he was gone.

Nowhere to be found.

So I stepped outside and started talking to a guy out there.

We talked for maybe 15–20 minutes.

Then I finally asked his name.

Donald.

That hit immediately.

My mom’s deceased husband was also named Donal, less the ending d.

Then he mentioned that his birthday was just a few days away from my mom’s, and they were born the same year.

And he was a veteran.

Just like my dad.


Filling the Space

That’s when I realized something.

I didn’t get the moment with Eli.

But something still filled the space.

It didn’t leave a gap.

It didn’t break the pattern.

It continued it.

Different name.

Different person.

Same alignment.


What I Took From It

I don’t fully understand what all of this means.

I’m not going to pretend that I do.

But I know what I experienced:

  • I put negative energy out → it came back
  • I went looking for understanding → I found reflection
  • I expected one connection → another one showed up

That’s the part I can’t ignore.


Final Thought

If this is a system, a simulation, or something we don’t have the language for yet…

Then it responds.

Not always the way you expect.

But it responds.

And what you put into it matters.

Sometimes the mirror shows you exactly what you sent out.

Other times, it shows you something you didn’t expect—but needed to see.

Either way, it reflects.

So be careful what you send into it.

And pay attention to what comes back.